Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Are you living or just alive?

My recent venture into living my life the way I want to, have made me meet other side some of my female and male friends.. some were shocking... some not so much, because I was aware of their nature.

According to these friends they think I have just come out of my shell. Technically they haven't known me long enough to come to that conclusion. I had always been this out going, but life happens and you don't know who you should open up to any more. Everything becomes a question mark at that point. To answer my own questions I had to start living again... so here I am :-)

Coming back to the friends, one friend confronted she has the same wishes as I do. I asked what they were, she replied, tattoo, motorcycle, dance etc she gave a huge list. I had to ask what stopped her, because till this point I only know this person as 8-5 working woman, talks about her kid's education and cooking dinner, all of sudden this topic opened up and she lit up like 1000watts bulb when talking about it. Technically no one stopped her, she had assumed the age for those have par, then she thought her parents won't approve off and now she assumes her husband will be furious. My question was oh so it's not your life?

I agree every part of our life is team work… go to school you are put in group projects, work of course you have teams and team leads to deal with, come home and the team of family have you by the hair. Therefore, with run of the life everyone loses one self.


I really envy the singles and unmarried in life, because they are at a point where they don’t have answer to anyone yet (KIDS being the big word here). They can truly choose to live or just stay alive. 

Monday, July 27, 2015

PaperMate Sharpwriter #2 USA

Things as simple as pencil can remind you of friendships. I have a friend who loves these pencils. One time when I asked what you want from US, he said pencils. I was surprised to hear, but I got him the pencils without further questions.

We have known each other for over 10years. In these years we have been through two broken hearts and finally rang the wedding bells with whom we thought would support us for years to come. after which our friendship took a turmoil, because we are opposite sex and we are close. So we respected our spouses and kept our distance.

Just last year, My friend and I were going to be in the same geographic location after so many years, we decided we should meet. Hence the question of what you need from US. At the time I thought it was silly and I gave him the gift, we had coffee and parted.

It's been a year and now everytime I see the pencil in someone's hand or in a store shelf, a smile crosses through my face, no matter the mood I am in. Then came to realization that its not the gift he wanted, its unique totem to remember him by. A presence of support, even when not around physically. 

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Monday, February 6, 2012

Relationship with Friends

All these years I have been chasing after true friendship. Every time I have thought I have found it, all I find is they only see me as a friend with benefits.

Some even decided to betray me in ways that I have never again to trust a friend. Friendships are pretty rare thing lot people don't flourish it the way they should.

Every time a friend helps you when in need, please turn back and help them don't turn your backs on them say you are busy. That gives someone a sense of hopelessness in others.

One said that "if you want to be a true friend you need adjust with them no matter what" unfortunately I don't believe in that because I have seen that friend adjust his life for his friends but his friends don't seem to even think what he is giving up to be there.

I always think friendship must be mutual, not just an added number to your Facebook list.